WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT ... MOM? (Published in the Daily Reporter on 06/10/1910)
the south of reason, in the basement of affection ... where they roll all hatred, and the footprints and memories have connotations of time , where the land lies tired ... there where the pain spreads the storm, respect and harmony of faith are just sadness. So from that day that he knew his life was only this dazzling every morning. The painful truth known, a light which can blind. The omen of new anxieties, the nasty mirror where you draw the aberration of a few each evening when an innocent is neglected ... the old oracle that given the strength of the evil lies gloomy predictions. His daughter, barely 12 years, was referred to a vice ... violentación a constant value, a mistreatment of his innocence, this change in compass, the road sign outside any respect, any ignorance ... to make it dependent an aberration able to follow the wrong turn, scattering showers, confusing the stars, redo the stars and making the pool a "habit" of passion which breaks off in the middle of instinct, fear, or the newly discovered pleasure. So in your heart now there is room for anger, hatred, vengeance awaited. Today nests at dusk, twilight, unwanted cobwebs. Bleeding scars that remind him of his daughter in the hands of a heartless, who convinced her that what he did was a gesture of affection. Shadowy figures announced perennial hostels in this chorus of dead sad that his life has become almost ten years, when he heard how the teenager had become pastel world that she had given to his daughter. This is why now is the afternoon drink, colors, life. Have your child as an adult, never cease to occupy their space with pets, butterflies, flowers, swallows. Power out of this nest of empty eyes and absences that have become eternal traces of abuse disguised affection. Those who in the midst of darkness, the instinctive, conditioned reflex ... did puddle mud for joy. Therefore, still trying to stop frequently at the smell of the morning to forget that feeling that you left early autumn. Sow fertile ground for the mud to stop the map from their own nightmares .... This time without surprises, this time knowing the road. Want to smear it in life. Wipe the appreciation that has blocked their confidence, increasing the memory demands that attention damping the site of dreams ... these things over and intimate, that should never be shared. Today you want your little girl grown big, stop tripping sprays, with the worst of his years spent ... and start to knit more sunrises in the calendar so hated. Discover a smile, erase the guilt, break a few mirrors where the image of health stopped him from his old high school ... and you can find one where no shame, no fear, no internal signs ... look, and look back
"I spoke with her several times by phone. Came from a neighboring state, to meet with me. No longer mourn. We have broken faith, when they have made their daughter, an innocent subject of ongoing abuse. Though it has been 8 years of it, suffers as the first day I found out. No peace in interior. No birds that accompany the feeling. Only the irrational cry every time, frightened by new
- Thanks for having me graduate. Excuse me crying, but there are things a mother has a hard time overcoming ... even if you have done everything possible to make
- Calm down, I say. Take the time required. I understand that returning the page to remember is to relive summers and winters with all its consequences ...
- It's been 8 years, and I could not cope. My daughter even begin to rebuild their affections ... amid suspicions, doubts and suspicions, but it starts to remake it. I could not. I checked as with a hot iron. For life! Especially because I think it had acted improperly. I believe that to feel that protected, there was no punishment for the guilty
- What happened to your daughter?
- 8 years ago, my daughter just 12, studying at one of the schools in the city where they still reside. Although alert and intelligent, always accused some shyness at home attached to being an only child. Excellent student, but had few friends. Although there are a very conservative family, we have instilled in her values \u200b\u200bconsistent with each stage of life is lived. Just entering puberty, it was not easy I knew almost a decade, life now know our teens. Grew, I understand now, overprotected. We create a shield for its impermeability, which ended up being, unfortunately, the culprit who had no knowledge of basic things of its kind and the opposite gender, who finished plotting against his own integrity as a child. Yes we noticed that increasingly became more sullen. More introverted. A unit of high school, I cried for coming even though she was sick. However, we attribute the need always to be with her friends. To leave home, where Mom and Dad were just ... maybe detuned from their haunts and expectations. One day, I called the school principal, and a voice that made my heart jump, he said he wanted to talk about something very delicate that was happening to my child. I was startled, and asked him, almost shouted, "that I brought forward some of what was happening. What if it was something bad ... please do not keep me in suspense. She remained in place, although obviously strong concern, and I said that it was best that we spoke personally. Please leave without my husband, and not to tell anything to it, until she, the teacher guides the child and I, we were talking.
- What was it serious?
- When I arrived, they were indeed her and guide the teacher in his office. They called another teacher, and asked him to tell me ... a story that ended with my life once, BA.
counting "Follow me, I ask
- The teacher tells me that she had two weeks postnatal supplying a permit from the owner of the subject. And he had a lot of attention every day during those weeks, my daughter just ten minutes after the second break, he asked for permission to go to the toilet. I asked him one time why did not meet any physiological need that ushers in recess to avoid disrupting the class. And I said I did not know why, but it was just as she requested, which required urgent toilet. Consulted, "he said, with her colleagues and was told that it was customary, and as was medium rare, they do not talk much with them .... No one will" stop. " So I decided, he said, doing my own research. I asked some students to follow with discretion to find that happening, and as a result I found a nasty surprise ... So I asked, not more bluntly teacher, and tell me what happened that got me coals! ... Then get ready lady for what I will say is that once the girl went to the bathroom within minutes one of the janitors came in and kept intimate with her. No violence. As with his consent. I told the principal and janitor immediately cite his office ... he told us that yes, it was "consensual sex." Who had become engaged and that it was she who needed it .... To corroborate some obituaries showed us that the girl had sent her describing what she would or she wanted to do it, so crude and very lewd. We told him ... but a girl only twelve years! That's a violation! But we showed the requests "Libidinous" of girls and warned us about the scandal that would build on the matter. The suspended and called the student ... who's quietly confirmed what the janitor had assured us moments before ... when I graduate, hearing the story, almost on the verge of a heart attack just wanted to wake from the nightmare ...
- What did the girl?
- That ... that was her boyfriend. I asked who wanted to do, and I said let me digest it, discuss it with my girl and then denounce the tramp that. I said, think hard before discussing it with her husband, how will you tell, will not be a reaction against the janitor it complicates things ... especially because there are copies of letters written by her, he gave me and the originals preserved .... okay, I said ... come tomorrow. I got home, I was filled with patiently, and asked him ... what was my surprise when, with great ingenuity, or cynicism, I think, "I accepted what the teachers had told me: yes mom, he's my boyfriend. Six months ago, I went to the bathroom and he was aseándolo ... told me not to worry because I do not see you. Rather I will take care. Go in there that I'm still cleaning. As I washed hands, I called his cell phone and gave it to him. I called many times. I said nice things. He could ask him about everything and was not surprised ... one day told me that if I was so lonely I could teach me love myself and no one can sit beside it. Do not need anyone to do so. He told me that when I bathe, I lathering and caress me all over. That stopped me in my genitals in a way that told me to feel a thing so exquisite ... and I was doing. Pleasuring taught me ... little by little I was taught to do things alone, until one day he told me if I wanted to learn more about me personally was to explain and called me to the bathroom after the break .... I had, taught me to kiss when she had boyfriend and I started to feel things I never felt. It was becoming more intense, until one day I undressed and shared with me becoming my boyfriend ... thereafter, we met every day at the same time, it pleased me and I was pleased ... and the worst degree, was when I said ... and what's wrong with that mom? ... total, at some point going to have a boyfriend!
- what did you do, how to react?
- I began to mourn and asked for forgiveness by making it so vulnerable. By exposing it, with my prejudices, manipulative and evil minds like those of that animal who abused his innocence. Of course not talking about sex. Not realizing his loneliness and lack of affection, and attributed only to a way of being shy. By ignoring their loneliness. Having abandoned my duty to be consulting always about their welfare. Not to get ahead, and now I must do every mother, to your questions. Not to break the ice and give you confidence. Having failed as a mother. Make her pay for the sins of my folly ... I apologized, BA, because it accidentally and I put God as a witness, handed it to the vultures in the midst of failure as a mom ..
- not hurt, I say ... how did she react to your question, your tears?
- cried with me, in principle without understanding. Just because I cried, I think. We talked. I would say that first night, Mom was integral. He told me the details of the relationship ... because she thought it was natural that he did. In a confusion between the novels he saw, the education gaps timid as mine had left him, their own concerns and findings of a woman ... she, like many children, learning life and its miseries of the most difficult and most damaging possible. That night I told your father that my daughter was beginning to be a woman and I needed that I was spending the night with her ... he said, careful to open the senses ... and then I felt more sorry for what happened.
- What did the janitor?
- the teachers and I decided not to report it to the authorities, something which I regret now, because we thought at the time that the notes written by my daughter, when making inquiries courts ... we were going to do more harm it's that we had already done and that I was not going to let that bastard out unpunished though ... because at that time health My daughter's mind was the first ... He just asked to resign, and he once formulated.
- Ella, and 20 years ... How are you?
- has been overcoming their fears. The feeling of guilt that was left. He has made his life, without compromising the introversion that has been characteristic of his personality ... but now he has friends, is integrated into social networks, and as far as I've said, I understood ...
- If all goes well, why remove it now?
- Because I think we can avoid, you and I through the space of the Informant, the other girls are manipulated, even at this time when a very young age know about everything. Tell the parents that have to be aware of the boys, when we are the first trust, to be taught from a young age on the use of their sexuality, without false or hypocritical affectation sanctimoniousness. Preparing our children so they can use the unlimited freedom we have today ... with tact, without getting hurt. Teach its truth, although sometimes not understand, or offends us, or punish. Explain that instincts are sometimes over rationality and convenience. Learning to tolerate and understand them ... so that not another receiver of affection and trust. Give them all the love possible. Do not try to judge or to condition them from our education or securities owned by another time, other customs and other conventions. And understand that the twelve years, are male or female body capable of emitting answers ... even the tampering.
had looked to be late, and in the lobby of the dark, waiting just blocks down the road. There was then a dream, no flags, no whistles, no smiles. The old ghosts, which had always avoided, were pompous ... fueled by what she believes was a lack of confidence. The absence of the right word, understanding due, the appropriate tolerance. Try to look behind, to regain the map of the old steps to give it to others who wish to avoid the thorny path that will play in luck. Discover in the wrong done to her daughter from the manipulation of affect, any other evidence that serves to prevent torture. Understand that not all passions are bad. There are healthy passions on which we weave the intricacies of love ... and we should not fear that our youngest children know and get ready to prepare for live-now time, with full knowledge that no pederast abused. Why nobody wants to charge your cross, or have torn the place of his bones. Or add the string of faults in tow. That whipped not more blacks, grays, and the times. Who has a goal to rest the weight of the burden and suffering. Because today to dig the love, just find an accusing finger that points ... but you know your daughter is happy, and blowing winds in their new life.