(Published in the Daily Reporter on 3/31/1909)
She just wants a fun relationship
Víctor M. Barranco C.
Each absence, in addition to this ... a scream. With each new start, a new pain. In every darkness, the same fear. In every corner of the house realenga, a sadness. Since his mother was fond of the drink in everyone's life, it rains. Persistent rains, but no blooms. Everything is dry. Even his relationship with the spouse, with children, with the lover. Rains, but nothing gets wet enough to dilute the swamp. Go to the author of his life and sees in it a summer in the eyes, his skin bruised by the punishment, in this strange relationship of a wife that keeps your mind and the lover who lives in your body ... and no doubt : in the depths of his mother be sure it rains. In this relationship the emergence of a third violent, disrespectful ... has established a relationship with her sickly passionately, that curiosity has become the neighborhood and disruptive element of the family unit. Where is the umpire he arrives at midnight to insult her, punching her and disrespect ..., their children, a husband who waits and who still wants to share her bed and nights. The home is crying foul, of silence, fear, cries, that indignity that cuts the site of shame, modesty. But there is no place for him, for treason, to distrust, for daily and turbulence ... and misfortunes come together at such an embarrassing infidelity and unwise, is joined by the alcohol and violence in the ghoulish holiday. But his mother, and she's beyond censorship and the discomfort you feel, want to help. So young yet, it is proposed to stop mourn their fears. Firing every offensive word pronounced. Buried in the hope every cry of sadness drowned. Unsay begin to retrace, to erase. A stormy pass that page that has marked the family as ingratitude. A fill color of the lettering of love, the place where someone killed him at home, hope. Silent stop. Since his daughter's room to judge, sentence, saying that some things are wrong. Well, neither her mother deserves the abuse of the man who wants and who is not her husband, nor her father deserve the rudeness, treachery, heartbreak of that is still his wife ... especially when you share with her, yet, the same bed. Although it has not stopped thinking about whether her mother was at home the required attention, the necessary care, the care and affection that as a woman and wife deserved. It has therefore decided to stop going to nothing. Do not go over to the family table every day and be part of that tournament of lies that there is given, to live more or less smoothly. Rescue your family reason, low intelligence, the most basic of modesty. Stop calling indifference, hormones, passion over the welfare of the family. Take ... to convince her, her mother, who decides. To end this nest of ghosts in the living, and not leave it to study, or glad, or leave the house without shame ... or should live as a girl of just 18.
- Me writes, he tells me part of their tragedy by mail and asked me to listen. He is very young, but has had to live all hell.
- My mom tells me input, is an alcoholic. It also has a lover. Someone who makes her and us as a family, a lot of damage.
- Does your dad know?
- Yes, once saw on the street
- Tell me ...
- Dad and Mom have been married 19 years. She is 42 years old ... the 50. Like 5 years ago went to celebrate the birthday of a cousin in a tavern, where he met Mom. There I believe the relationship began. He began visiting the house. But he did as a family friend ... until after we left my brother and I with her to fire him, and saw how he kissed her mouth.
- When your dad was, how did you react?
- It raised a great controversy at home mom and denied everything. But this time was no worse worst was when the guy came at midnight to the house drunk, and insulted my mother. Assembled a horrible scandal. Dad went to hit him angry ... but I did not let him. I convinced him that this was not the road. That day my mother offered to quit, end with that relationship and to this day denies that this with him ... so we see them together.
- You Have not you talked to her?
- I claim. Advisable. I speak for the good times I've seen, and she argues that it is a coincidence. For her, whenever I see them, is a coincidence.
- How to accept your father that adulterous relationship to his face, as well as disrespectful to him and to all of you?
- My dad is very patient and hold it
- And she, why do not you go with boyfriend?
- I am convinced she does not want him home. That, I have with my dad. What she wants is a funny relationship, but no commitments.
- Fun and upset every time the guy drops a stick?
- Yes, it's a strange relationship. She tells me that my Dad not attending serves as the groom. Not the bag. That does not bear to dance and drink. My brother and I have demanded a whole, but has paid nothing. Moreover, once my brother asked me if I thought sex was what united the guy and I said ... I do not know.
- Do not you ever wondered if you think like children?
- Yes. She thinks that what he does affects us. That does not hurt none of the family.
- drank it before the relationship?
- Yes, but socially. As anyone who goes to a party or a tavern. Now drink to get drunk. Drink with him, and he has a bad drink. When he drinks the physically assault, even after my brother assaulted. A mother has disfigured the face of shocks. Abuse was so severe that time she complained to the authorities ... but soon withdrew the complaint.
- What does your mother's boyfriend?
- Watchful
- not you sitting with her woman to woman
- No. When I propose the subject or altered, or laughs.
always evades - He is back home?
- No. I do not go home
- What was the relationship as husband and wife between your mother and your father?
- do not remember loving, affectionate. I did not. Pleased that maybe Dad ... but it was as she wished.
- your mom's boyfriend is single?
- not married but has children. He lives alone. Relatively close to my house
- Do you think you will leave?
- No. If he did when he struck, it put horrible ... like a monster, if that does not gave ... I really do not think so.
- What would you like to happen?
- That definitely solved, she chooses ... yes or no, but you decide. I wish I could go a long way from home.
- Do you think your mother is sexually dissatisfied in their marriage?
-
do not know - I was very lonely?
- Yes
- Where to drink?
- In places near the house
- Does she have brothers ... are aware?
- have siblings, but are not aware. She does not deal with them often and close. Rather, the family of my dad is who he claims.
- What about the neighbors?
- Sure, because the scandals are at dawn and live in a village where everything is heard.
- Do you have recommended professional assistance?
- Yes, but she did not stop drinking or when you have a medical treatment. She drinks beer bold "because that is where I scratch," he says. She is drinking to get drunk
- What does your father when assembled such trouble?
- As I said before, out of their boxes and I try to calm him.
- How does your mom live?
- My dad gives money to save ...
- Do you think your dad has some guilt?
- In a way yes. I think the neglect and inattention paid the way for that matter what happened and she did what she did
- Has there been any reconciliation in the years between your parents?
- have always shared, but the Lord is always there. I think my dad tries to ignore the situation, to become the crazy
- sleep together even your father and your mother?
- Yes sleep in the same bed
- What do you think of sex?
- is a love relationship. A share of couples.
- Do you believe in sex without love?
- Yes
- What do you think of your mom?
- Do not think of us, but I think we want their own way. Loves us, but even if it hurts and makes us all, not let him. He has sworn many times that's going to end this relationship ... but it is a lie
- Have you had a boyfriend?
- Yes
- Have you ever fallen in love?
- No
- Do you think anyone can fall madly in love?
- They ... they look like two little boys. Sending messages ... my love, I love you and all those things. When he's not drunk he is very gentle with her ... which I must admit it never was my dad.
- Are you happy?
- I am not. Living hell that will not let me calm. Choking me, suffocating me.
- Why do you want to publish your nightmare?
- Because many people read it, and I know it reflects on her interviews every Wednesday. Many people like me, especially young people between 12 and 18 years before we read no newspapers, we are waiting Wednesday eager to share with their interviewees dramas we all know and some of them may be going through something similar. Or because if a mother like mine, an adventure of these you learn how to stop it with your family. I trust that this window has opened you contribute to what cases like mine no longer present, no one like me have to live them, and if they live to be resolved in terms of what can be better for some children as My brother and I, for a husband and father ... because this nightmare is a product of alcohol abuse, that the temptation of desire. They know where to take the habit, and many more lives, as well as the addict, can end if nothing is done on time.
Young. Smart. Determined to help, however it is sometimes overwhelmed by the reality that touches confront. Although he wants to leave, drop everything, fly ... is there with her skin, her warmth. With the unconditional love that shouts its horror at every bump covered. In every thought saved. In every dream violated. Still there despite its weaknesses. With the shock of those not used to doing everyday sorrows. A lack of shoes in its short-haul experiential, had to leave their feet ... but not their footprints in the family embarrassment. He has left his life, but not its presence. Affiliation, this custom that children should accept what their parents do not judge is perhaps the most conviction. Pay part of a fault that has not, just because her mother is the error. This was buried in his mind, which ruffles your skin and scar the mark of indignity that both hurts. There continues to rely on a new dawn. In another dawn. With this uneasiness frosting oblivion, mortifying that image that looks to the ceiling of his room when a new scandal seeps through the window. Remains, calendar in hand. With a clock that does not advance, but ringing. With that clothing provided that you do not take shelter the road. With that known child, only part time. With that pay the bills ... what else has broken.
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